BattlequeenYume said:
Over 3000?!
Time to safe the world I guess.
It knows if you're already queued too, apparently, because I just tried to process a different image in a new tab and it was like, "Nah". XD
otaku_emmy said:
Holy shit, I guess waifu2x has been down every day this week, and I'm in line rn on the alternative site and it's taking FUUUURRRRREVER because there's over 3000 requests in the queue. Jeezush. I don't even know if it's worth the time.
works fine for me (now atleast)
aradan said:
works fine for me (now atleast)
I just checked and it's still down for me. Oh? Huh. I refreshed the page and now it's fine.

Hm. Go figure. Hopefully it'll stay up. Waiting over an hour to process two images was a bit much for me. XD
Waifu2x was down for me too, when you mentioned, Em.
Now it's still up.
If you have an Nvidia GPU with CUDA cores, then you can just install waifu2x and do it locally.
Actually, some work even without that. It's slower though. But speed isn't a big deal if you're only processing your own queue.
My laptop is ass (it won't even let me have an account picture anymore) so I'm loathe to do anything to it at this point. I'll be happy if it lasts me 'til I can get a new one.
Man, I can't believe it's been 7 years since I was last here.
Tiki said:
Man, I can't believe it's been 7 years since I was last here.
Hey Chiki. I don't really remember you personally, but I've seen you *gestures* AROUND.

What's been going on wit chu? How are things?
otaku_emmy said:
Hey Chiki. I don't really remember you personally, but I've seen you *gestures* AROUND.

What's been going on wit chu? How are things?
If I remember right i dropped off when i joined the military. A lot of things happened but things are going pretty good for me now.

Got a wave of nostalgia and wanted to see if any of the peeps from long ago were still around on here or dropped off as well. But to be honest i also don't really remember much from that time either. I do remember you a bit emmy tho not much.
Ohhhhhh, the military. Yeah that'll eat up a lot of your time. XD

Yup, I'm still here. Can't really leave. I think I only ever would if this place shut down. I like tagging stuff and looking at the pictures too much. Plus I'm very attached period. It's been a long-ass time.

I will say I'm not the same person I was seven years ago, but that probably goes for most people.

Anyway, I'm glad you're doing well! That's always good to hear. Too much bad stuff going on in the world right now so it's nice to know someone's doing well. :)
It's like an addiction to post. UwU
BattlequeenYume said:
It's like an addiction to post. UwU
Y'know, I've been talking to my mom about it, and thinking about some stuff that I've lived with for a long time and comparing it to the experiences of other people, and I honestly think I might have ASD. I think that's why I've fixated on anime for so long and why I fixate on certain things so...INTENTLY.
As I now it's not so easy to detect.
My brother has it too.
It would explain A LOT about myself and some of my "eccentricities". I don't have insurance so I can only go to the doc around twice a year, so I'll have to wait and ask about being tested for ASD and BPD in January.

Like, it never even occurred to me that NEEDING to have my pill bottles in a specific order, doing EVERYTHING in a specific order every single day, not being able to look people in the eyes, studying other people the way I do, hating certain noises (or a complete lack thereof), refusing to use certain FORKS, repeating myself, fixating, info dumping, collecting things, etc. were ASD things. And then it suddenly hit me. XD
Tiki said:
Man, I can't believe it's been 7 years since I was last here.
Welcome back!

On a semi-related note, I was going through random posts and sometimes I encounter comments from people and realize that I haven't seen them around in some time, like Agos for example with his memorable turtle avatar.
otaku_emmy said:
  • NEEDING to have my pill bottles in a specific order
  • hating certain noises (or a complete lack thereof)
  • refusing to use certain FORKS
  • info dumping
  • collecting things
These five sound pretty normal though.

otaku_emmy said:
I think that's why I've fixated on anime for so long
How is that different from simply having a love or passion for something? It's normal to develop strong interests in some subjects or hobbies. Even better if that can lead you to a career you enjoy, though that's not easy in the case of anime.

I can remember that as a child my parents told me I was diagnosed with some disorder. But they said they wouldn't tell me what it was because they didn't want me to use it as an excuse. Even now I have no idea what it was, nor does it matter. Either I overcame it or I consider it a part of who I am.
Well exactly. Maybe those things sound normal to you because you're neurodivergent too. From what I know about you you seem like the type of person I'm talking about.

That's the right attitude to have about it too. You can't really fix autism or being ND, so you shouldn't be ashamed of it or let it bother you. It should be embraced and understood.

Hell, I even saw an article (that I didn't bother reading) that stated more and more adult women are being diagnosed with autism.

ASD is one of those things that...you can be completely unaware of even having if it's not severe. It could even be beneficial if you end up being in to things like computers or music or art/design because you can make careers outta those interests.
I wasn't specifically talking about myself though.

  • NEEDING to have my pill bottles in a specific order
I don't take a bunch of pills. Just a couple vitamins (K2/D3 & C). But everyone I know that does have many pill bottles keeps them in some order.

Being organized or getting upset when someone messes up something you have organized is extremely normal. Sure, some people seem to prefer a disorderly mess or don't care one way or the other. But I think most people prefer order, at least in some things.

  • Hating certain noises (or a complete lack thereof)
I know a lot of people that hate silence. Some just leave a TV on all the time for some background noise. I know of fewer people that can't stand certain noises, but that's a subject that wouldn't come up as often.

I'm fine with silence, but I prefer music by far. Though silence is far better than having a TV on in the background. Filing is pretty much the only sound I can't stand.

  • Refusing to use certain FORKS
Just a matter of preference and comfort. Why use a fork you dislike when you can just wash one you like? My entire family is like that.

Though, if you order food at a restaurant but then refuse to eat it because you don't like the forks they brought you, that's not really normal. But it can certainly affect how much you enjoy the meal.

  • Info dumping
If that weren't normal, there are countless websites that wouldn't exist.

  • Collecting things
Since when is that considered abnormal?

People collect all sorts of things (eg. coins, cars, vases, crystals, polished stones, antiques, old electronics, fine china, etc.). I've never heard anyone say that's abnormal before.

As for people that tend to gather and hold on to a bunch of "stuff", that may be closer to a disorder, but still quite common. I think that's normally a result of one's way of life, though. Simply put, you feel you can't get rid of anything because you may have a use for it some day.
Yeah. I get what you mean.

I still think something's "wrong" though. It's just dawned on me too late. There's been a few positive changes as of late though. In terms of...my brain and stuff and how I process things and relate to other people.

A lot of how you feel comes down to choice, at the end of the day. You have to choose to move past negative things.
otaku_emmy said:
You can't really fix autism or being ND, so you shouldn't be ashamed of it or let it bother you.
IMO, that's the wrong way to look at it.

otaku_emmy said:
There's been a few positive changes as of late though. In terms of...my brain and stuff and how I process things and relate to other people.

A lot of how you feel comes down to choice, at the end of the day. You have to choose to move past negative things.
This is the right way.

There's nothing about myself that I can't change if I really want to. I've done it many times before. It just takes a lot of determination and a little time.
You SHOULD be aware of your problems and how they affect those around you. It's called being considerate and has nothing to do with any problem or lack thereof.

Then you can decide how you want people to see you. E.g. the forks example. No matter how much you hate some forks, you do NOT say "ima not eat anything until you change the forks" to a host.

*flaps around madly* "Oh no I ate chilli pepper call an ambulance I can't stand this!"
*random person* "Here drink some milk!"
*suddenly stops all movement* "... is it almond milk?

You are as free and liberated as you make yourself.
Edit: Got ninja'd :p

That's what I meant. You find healthy ways to work with and around certain disorders and illnesses. Learn to recognize when you're not feeling well, understand WHY you feel that way, and develop methods to work through those troughs. Don't pin your emotional wellbeing on other people and expect them to make everything better. If something or someone is really bothering you, there's nothing wrong with taking a step back and letting it go. Stuff like that.

I see too many people desperately trying to cling to trivial, fantastical shit in order to cope with their own existences. I use escapism as a coping mechanism too, but you have to be able to decipher what is important and what isn't. What is real and what isn't. You know? You have to be able to truly KNOW yourself. The good, the bad, and the ugly. If you can't face your own flaws and the ugliness inside you, you're never going to get better.

I also understand that some people don't WANT to get better and be better human beings. That's a different kettle of fish though.
Zolxys said:
The last time I saw real porn would have to be about 25-28 years ago. And the few movies I end up seeing aren't the kind that would have sex scenes. But I do recall coming to the conclusion that:

"There's nothing appealing about real porn. People must only like it because it's sexually exciting and that must blind them to just how unsightly it is. Any (real) porn you don't find sexually arousing is just disgusting."
So, you haven't watched porn since? Not even hentai? It's a big thread, and I'm not sure if I read it all correctly.
I know many people who prefer to watch hentai than regular porn. And I agree. I also think it's weird to watch regular porn cause I think hentai presents sex nicer and better. Even tho it shows something unrealistic, it looks good. I even noticed that the escort girls are presented differently than in reality. I compared them to the ones on this site https://www.escorts2.com/female-escorts. I don't say that they look better or worse, just different.
@chardobon
If you're going to reply to old posts, you should at least read the whole conversation and consider the context.

Although it should have been fairly obvious anyway, in the four posts preceding the one you quoted, a differentiation was made between "real porn" and "hentai". I was commenting on "real porn".
Speaking of sexual activity, I had the pleasure of explaining what an "incel" is to someone today.
The terrorist organization known as I.N.C.E.L.
Cade said:
The terrorist organization known as I.N.C.E.L.
The International Network for Criminal Espionage...League...
otaku_emmy said:
Speaking of sexual activity, I had the pleasure of explaining what an "incel" is to someone today.
lmaoo. a lot of ppl don't know what that term means i do tho.

And holy shit IM MIGHT BE GOIN TO YO CITY, EMMY.